funky funk

i feel as if i have not seen the sun in days. every time i take a step out the door, the sky is dripping on my already disheveled hair, so it just becomes more disheveled. i mean, there are those moments when it is dry and i catch a glimpse of blue sky through the cloud covering. however, it usually only lasts about an hour (at most). which is exciting, but also...it gives false hope that a dry sunny day is ahead.

i am constantly chilled to the bone, regardless of a chunky sweater or blanket scarf. sadly, summer is at an end. or is coming to an end. don't get me wrong, a hike in the rain is still possible and just as beautiful. it's just more difficult to motivate oneself to do so #HigherRiskOfPneumonia 

i think i mentioned this in my last post, but i have been in the funkiest of funks. i know it's part of because i have not been as active as i would like to be. instead of going on a hike, i would rather stay snuggled in blanket with a cup of coffee, donut, and book. don't get me wrong, i LOVE snuggling. however, my heart and spirit would rather be experiencing an adventure first hand rather than reading about one. 

i absolutely love the adventure that juneau provides. adventure in new relationships. adventure in nature. adventure in food. adventure in my spirituality. adventure in my identity. 

another contribution to my funk is the realization that my adventure in juneau is not permanent, at least not at this point in my life. today in church, that realization really hit me as pastor briefly spoke about following the desires God puts on our hearts. and for me, that is peace corps--a desire of mine since high-school and a desire that has grown stronger over the past couple of months.

if i were to stay in juneau, it's because i want to stay and not because He has called me to stay.
i need to pursue what He has called me to do rather than repress it for fear of going out of my comfort zone.

i've decided that i am going to apply for the peace corps in the next few weeks to begin volunteer work in the fall of 2017. i know in my bones that PC is supposed to be a part of my life. and right now, the Holy Spirit is stirring this desire more than ever before. in my view, i would be completely uprooted. in my view the timing does not make any sense in regards to financial comfort, up and coming weddings, my job, fear of disappointing friends and family, grad school, etc.

"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future'". Jeremiah 29:11

in His view, the timing is right. i know that Christ is in the world and i will be rooted no matter where i go because i'm rooted in Him. my fear of discomfort and inconvenient timing will be put to rest for Christ is the prince of peace.

so, stay tuned as i work through this battle i have with myself and God in regards to the peace corps application #PrayAboutIt

in other news, my friend kelsey is here for the week and it she has been a ray of sunshine in this gloomy weather. we've tried hiking mt. roberts twice but have been defeated by the weather, so we are hoping that tomorrow it clears up. thus far, though, we have ventured to the glacier, sipped on tea, eaten A LOT of food, drove out to eagle beach, walked around the shrine where we were able to see salmon fail as they try to swim upstream, and explore downtown. more adventure is in store for the rest of our week as another friend will be joining us and at the end of the week, another mogensen will be in town! more photos and updates on these adventures to come. cheers to crazy escapades and happy hearts.

xoxo

-A